Nervous Breakdown

OK - so I have had a really rough week of things that are beyond my control and I feel myself going a little nuts. I feel sometimes like I can't handle things that are thrown my way and I feel selfish for wanting time to workout.

I basically have a 1 hour and 5 minute window to workout in the evenings and my workouts range from 60-90 minutes so I already cut some of them short. This last week things kept coming up and I missed FOUR workouts. I was at that point of wanting to give up and then I went to the grocery store. If it isn't hard enough to try and lose weight - try and buy healthy, fresh foods on an extremely tight budget. With my husband in school and our funding taking ages to go through for his student loans we are cutting it close as it is.

I hate feeling sorry for myself and I try hard not to but I just lost it this weekend and had a breakdown. I refuse to get pregnant again until I have lost this weight and I can't lose weight - I am at a stand still right now. I have NEVER had a problem losing weight until now and it is soooo very frustrating. I know part of the problem is lack of sleep - I only sleep about 3-4 hours a night - and it is interrupted sleep. At this point there is not much I can do about that though. I gained a couple pounds back this week and I am disappointed in myself but I can only do what I can do and just keep working towards a healthier me.

This week I am cutting things a little short and leaving off the recipe and such in order to keep up with my life. Thanks for the support thus far and I hope to get back on track this week. Here's hopin'!!